don't call me brave yet, i'm still in the thick of it

i know why this is where i'm at
i asked for this - i remember that
i know that i don't get to blame you
though i'd like to
i want to scream and cry
"you were so unfair, you were so unkind"
but the truth is all that shit was mine

nothing's changed -
i'll just push you away and then complain
i will make my bed with these dirty sheets
and then damn you for not laying with me

let's have a laugh at me
and my bad poetry
buy the first song - the rest are free
even then i could make you a deal
give it all up for something real
none of this late night low light pondering anonymity
i'd give it all up for a garden blossoming propinquity

nothing's changed

what i saw in you was you seeing me
we can't have that, now can we
and what i saw in you was you leaving me
'cause of course you will, someday, eventually
every good thing must come to an end
and every strong thing bends
let's just hope we mend

nothing's changed
i'll just push you away and then complain
i will make my bed with these dirty sheets
and then damn you for not laying with me
damn you